slide slide stomp stomp

Was working on my glides.
If you don't know where to look, look at my feet.
WARNING: a little rusty on my moves.
Might need constructive advice.



I'm no dancing genius.

But I know I gotta dump my cross running steps.
Makin' me look stupid.
Could do with more spins.
Could glide stomp more.

Today was, blatant.
Other than mum giving me a number to call for a job.
I'm having those, I feel empty days again.
Like a very gloomy feel.
And it's been 3 days since I last did push ups.
Fucking Lazy. Must do deadlifts tomorrow.
Ah crap. There's NPU. Hmm...

Sorry if my blog posts are depressing.
Today, I turn 1 month and 20 years old.
11 months for the next disappointment. woopee
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Kelly.Y: Omg? That pants is excatly the same as my boyf's. .___.
eh wats wrong. not like i'll hang out with him wearing the same clothes. haha.. same colour?? mine's brown. almost got the dirty green one.
JASMINE (: haha, i don't know but i think is just scary to be there to teach! haha, or maybe is just me haha.
hahaha! nahh i think if i work as relief, i just go there give them work thn sit there n read book. wont be teaching cos its been 3 yrs. no confidence. =/

It's a dream

She sat before me on a bench, munching tidbits together after our short bus ride with a few others. I had just played a fool with a girl we both knew, and she went off to hit the loo.
"You damn funny you know?"
"First time see me like that meh?"
"Ya! Why last time you not like that"
"No chance to show you this side ma. hahaha"
He walked over in a calm fashion. Pressed his cheeks against her voluminous hair, arms wrapped around her shoulders in perfect harmony to her body. She did not react to his embrace, as if it was normal and taken for granted.
"Ahhh" as he stares down at the wheat biscuit she's having.
She ignores him playfully.
"Still don't feed him ah" I remarked.
She then takes a half bitten piece and pops it in his mouth.

A true sight of love to behold.
A nightmare I keep having.

This was the 2nd time I'm seeing that dream.
Its clearer this time because I had it before my 8am alarm went off.
Why the encore telecast?
Is it trying to tell me something?
It must be a prophecy, like what karma told me on December 30.
I get it. She's definitely going back to him.
Let it be then.
But seriously, of all guys. Why can't it be me?
*smacks forehead*

Went CNY shopping as mentioned.
First half was at Ion, Wisma and NgeeAnnCity.
Yesheng was late, expectedly.
Hung out with them for almost 12 hours.
Shopping, eating, checking out hot girls passing by.
And it could have lasted even longer if not for time constraints.
Steam boat dinner = good 'business' discussion activity.

Loots for the day:


I have a fetish for white shorts.
And I love the pockets in this.
Deep enough for my fist.


Got this on impulse.
It feels extremely nice on the legs when worn,
but I don't need it for any day of CNY.
Redundancy. Dammit.


I fell in love with the buckle at first sight.
Even though I didn't know about the brand.
The lousy BHG service punched the hole poorly.
I need to get them repunched. damn.

And finally, the climax loot of the day.

Everlast Canvas shoes

I don't know why. I just have a fetish for such design.
Wherever I go hunting for shoes, I'll be on high alert for these.
Somehow regret not paying 36 more for the top man's version.

I'm left with one more top to buy.
Plus new frames.
I'm sick of my white ahbeng one.

After walking up and down Bugis
Street, Junction, Iluma
We settled down at Spicy Lady's steamboat.
15perhead. Not that bad for a dinner.
Beats 13 bucks of Ajisan Ramen lunch hands down.

Mini reunion dinner.
Check facebook for tags.
We ate lots of fish.
Nian Nian You Yu!
Ok lame. What? Lets see you do better.

We could have done with some female company.
But today was definitely time well spent. =)
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desmond: it's you who jioed me first. then hz jioed me, then i told him u jioed me, then he organise. lol.
dun say until so romantic leh. wat i jio u u jio me. but ok la, in th end not i organise = (Y)
L: Yeah >_> seriously, a RELIEF TEACHER???
what? i was a nerd once (maybe still am). so why not? LOL
JASMINE (: haha, you sure you want to go west spring teach? HAHA.
ehh, why? do they do scary stuff to reliefs?! my cousin + buddy there, i think they will protect me or something. hahah
celine: nothing.. hahahhahah!! X
dont bluff. haha
celine: random la.. X
ehhhh.... cool man. =D

Misled

Apparently you gotta make a few phone calls before you become a relief teacher.
Aaron Chan called 10 schools before he got his current job.
Zhenghua Primary down.
Fail telephone operator at Greenridge Sec.
Next up, Beacon, Greenridge, BukitPanjang, WestView.
Then secondary schools, Zhenghua, WestSpring, and Greenridge again.
I don't belief that guy was supposed to put the phone down before taking my particulars.

Felt so good sharing how I felt with Angella.
Reminded me about the good old gossip times.
At least now I know I wasn't delusional loser.
I was misled guy.
Well, at least its clear now. heh.

Shopping trip with (some of) NPU tomorrow.
They organized and invited me. Touched.
T02 never made it this easy for me. =(
But I still love those guys.
'Cept for the one with no capacity.

Not looking forward to CNY.
Acne outbreak.
It seems whenever I'm about to meet my relatives,
my skin enjoys flashing lumps of redness at them.
But I hope after this CNY,
The 3 year record of having no reunion dinner with my dad's side finally snapped.
Hopefully my 3 weeks curse will break too.
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Merah: Gab wtf? I dont got 2 girls fighting over me.. O_o And wtfs with the tranny stuff lol?
but that's what you told me in the carpark!! eh, wanted to prove my point that any one fucking a tranny = bi. xD
celine: duddddeeeee!!
yessssssssssss??

Need to work.

Things I said I will do after FYP VIVA.
1) complete the 1000pc puzzle of sky blue
2) finish reading Neil Strauss' love novel
3) get a job that ends in time for NPU
4) work out daily till I'm damn buffed by NS
5) replay all the games in my ehdd in the hardest mode.
It's been 5 days. None of it has been done. lol
All wasted to illness, best excuse ever.

Had my load of work out videos.
Here's a motivational one.

He's too big. But I want his definitions.
and I also want my back acne scars to be gone.
I wanna gym. But there's NPU tomorrow.
Argh.

60 for Graduation Night seat.
65 for the outfit.
62 for my Under Armour.
another possible 60 for my new eye wear.
250 for CNY outfit. (sponsored)
I sure have spent a lot recently.
Really need to work soon.
Note to self, call Greenridge up ASAP.
By tomorrow. (or maybe the day after)

ARGH.
SCREW YOU PROCRASTINATION!!


This is how you remind me of what I really am

When there's nothing left to play
I find myself thinking about joining my brother in RO.

I need a new addiction.
Girls, games, whatever.
Anything but MMORPG.

72 page loads. 68 unique visits. 4 tags. hmm
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rachel: "Quarrel with him and he'd cry while shouting back." super duper luv this sentence hahahah
ehh wat, do u have a fetish for cry babies?? hahah
rachel: my brother has 2 girls fighting over him?! wtf my life is boring-er than his.
nah, dont emo for nothing. i know 4 ians in my life. and ding isnt the one i was refering to. =)
L: Additional favouriting books and creating groups for users to chat about them ._. I'm still spring cleaning
sounds tough leh. u gotta make a few tables just to personalise the favourite function no?
jas`: exploitation. tt's what it's all about ):
yeah... what to do? T_T

Gone is the life

It's day 3 and I still feel like a loser. lol. FML.
There isn't anything to smile about anymore

Spring cleaned my house.
The amount of dirt collected just by cleaning my door frame,
unbelievable.
And the dust balls I formed while vacuuming the top of my parent's wardrobe,
humongous.
I gave up halfway because my medication kicked in and I felt like jelly.
I'm glad spring cleaning's over.

My brain went overdrive thinking about the past while cleaning.
People use you. Thank you.
Appreciate you for a few days.
Then they forget any good that you did.
No matter how much you did for them
they won't put in an effort for you.
Like how some do nothing for you on your special day.
Because you're just a tool for them to exploit.
Just a tool.


How wonderful life is now you're in the world


We should be lovers


Come what may.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not in love.
I remember shedding a tear watching this when I was young.
Yeap, Gab wasn't made of stone throughout his life.
He was once very soft, very weak.
Quarrel with him and he'd cry while shouting back.

Winter league's tomorrow.
Lots of email responses saying they ain't showing up.
Looks like its gonna be a floating team.
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kyon: pray to god there will never be a time when 2 guys fight over you. lol
seems like you have some really queer fantasies there. haha
kyon: for green/red conver, got hear true story before. both guys who fought din get, someone else did. may not be applicable for all cases
well yeah, i've seen it happen before. 3 guys chase. 4th guy came into the picture and got her.
kyon: i think if two fight the girl also will feel bad. if me i settle quietly
nahh, its best to let her pick herself. no matter what kinda girl, i dont think its worth a blood bath.

Don't Like You

"My lungs have recovered, but I have an ego left to heal"

Sluts treat guys as their ATM.
They leave the moment the guy is sucked dry.
But hey, at least they're useful in society.
They improve the economy with their mindless spending.
Its not their money, so why not squander them away!
Heh.

I shuffled twice today.
Once in the morning. Took a video.
Got depressed at how much I deproved.
Hid the video in a corner of my hard disk.
Second time at the carpark with Ian and Calvin at night.
So yeah, 2 shuffles in a day. Shin is very splinted.
Long chit chat session while recovering.
To Japan! (if we can earn the money in time)
I'm gonna earn my money soon. I hope.

Moo's super light bike + calvin's lousy cam skill.
I want one. Time to work and save.

Why would anyone go out of their way for you if they don't like you?
My ego has been crushed badly this time round.
How much more shit do I have to take?
Ian has 2 girls fighting over him.
Why can't my life be just as exciting as his. T_T
Ahh, I give up. Hot single.

Question of the day:
If you fucked a tranny, are you straight, or are you bi?
Tough question eh. I think its bi.
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ys: then he have to fight for the gal lo..if not like me..kana snatch under my nose..
fight liao is lose the friend. ok we are going in one circle now.
ys: nt snatch...taken...eh wait..she wasnt mine in the first place..so do you feel me?lol..
yeah i feel u. u tell me this a lot of times liao. hahaha.. stop avoiding and try for her while she's available la u.
Jessica: I think it depends. Everyone only thinks about the guys part but what about the girl? Who will the girl be happier with? Is she happy? I mean, ultimately you just want the one you love to be happy no?
yeah ur right. she has the right to choose. but whoever she picks, that guy will still hafta pick either his friendship or the girl. i guess one of them just has to realise 'she's happy with him' and let go.
angella: All my bull**** helped me get B for everything hahaha. Soon it will improve to get an A must learn from me!
if i nvr go u is kena F hor. hahaha.. set my expectations? I can only think of setting 'no shin splint for training'. thats it. hahaha
HUIXIAN: haha i happen to caps everything. PS. listen to Cheryl's song: Fight for this/his love or whatever its called. lol.
fight for this love i think. meh, if only getting a girl was determined through fights la. lidat easier for me liao. hehe joking..
angella: MY BLOG SONG. I THOUGHT U SAY NO NICE HUH HX
HUIXIAN: but the lyrics got meaning wat!
not replying to you two. just saving it for entertainment. =P

Deception

Helped Angella get a B today.
Dragged my drowsy ass down to school for radio interview.
As the guy "With three years of Ultimate Frisbee experience, he can be considered quite famous in the world of Ultimate Frisbee."
Just like her twitter name, bullshit. hahaha...
Got a ginseng drink from her after lunch for 'helping'.
It did heal my itchiness a lil. heh.
Joshua Simon creeped me out with his spank before the interview.
And yeah, off to NPU.
Big mistake.
Should not have went and played.

I've become an ass hole again.
I really think its because I've been gyming too much.
Made my testosterone level hit sky high, that I lose my cool easily.
Or it could be the fact that the girls managed to cut open and score.
Maybe I just had really high expectations of the guys to be more agile.
And of myself to put better throws to them while they cut.
I don't know. Whatever.
I promise to keep my mouth shut for the next training.

Ming's right. Just another *****.
Giving false impressions everywhere.
I saw what I saw, and it fucking sucked.
Kinda glad that I got this figured out early.
Better now, than never.
How could I have been so naive.
Everyone else didn't get any funny ideas. I did.
What the fuck.
I'm such a sucker.
Welcome back to square one, loser.

And with those two negative/regretful feelings in me
I fuelled my 9 rounds around Kismis field despite my shin splint.
Play as a team. Lose as a team. Run the forfeit as a team.
No excuses.
But I must say, running at night with your top off feels fucking good.
Especially when you feel like shit and just wanna get your mind off stuff.

Wish I was going to party world soon.
Have so much emo-ness to sing off.
Wish I was gonna club soon.
Have so much emo-ness to dance off.
Wish I was gonna go drinking soon.
Have so much emo-ness to drown away.
I feel so, heavy on the chest, and its not because of my cough.

I'm on to the next one.
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L: Online bookshop =w= additional with Cannie's idea if I think I can kill myself over FYP LOL
wat kinda additionals? and I dont think u will suffer, especially if you look thru my codes. heh.
Tressa: Hahah let him have the girl.
That's being really generous. LOL
HUIXIAN: FIGHT FOR WAT U WANT, WITH WAT YOU'VE GOT THAT IS WAT I WILL SAY FOR THE GREEN AND RED CONVER
WHY MUST YOU CAPS ME?? haha.. Kinda agree. Makes it more worth while to treasure eh?
ys: i choose friend overm girl..if in the first place you know your friend does like the girl,then you should not head right in...
Good point. but what if its the girl head in to the green guy first? Still friend over girl or each man for himself?
ys: u can say i'm a loser but i say i cherish my friend more then anything..
no one will call you a loser for your own opinions.